Sitting with an angel

Dear Alyssa,
As I sit here by your quiet little spot with the breezes blowing I wonder how can anyone question if this is good for me? Every Friday I come and visit you sit in the same spot and look at this beautiful view. I know that I have found peace. I have found that one place where I am not judged or pressured or made to feel bad. I can just be....not feeling the need to impress anyone or be fake or not feel or express the emotions that sometimes just creep up on me. I feel like I can just be me, the no frills mommy to an angel. Hopefully the mommy that u remember.


I love that when I leave this beautiful place that I feel whole again. I feel like the stresses of the week that have plagued me just melt away.  I feel like anything is possible if I tell you or even if I don't tell you.  You are my reason for everything. The one person who  never judged me or wanted me to be something that I wasn't or that I am not.
Thank you for every once in a while showing me you are here with me and I am not alone. For reminding me to take time and just be without putting any pressure on myself. For reminding me that sitting quietly is as important as being busy.  For being my little girl.  I love u more than all the stars in the sky seen and unseen times infinity.
Love always,
Mommy