Another angel, another angel-versary

Dear Alyssa,

I know that yesterday you were joined in heaven by another angel...I know that Meme finally made it to the one place she wanted to be for the last 12 years. Spending 91 years on earth leaving behind a legacy of 6 children, 18 grandchildren, and lots of great grandchildren. Meme was ready to go ready to join the love of her life and her oldest great grand-daughter and countless others that had gone before her. I was able to see Meme more than a year ago
. She was so happy to see me telling me that she didn't think she would ever be able to see me again. I am so happy that I got to see her and was able to get some awesome pictures of Meme and with Meme...many memories I will have forever.

Meme, Mommy and cousin Katherine

Meme

The only Great Granddaughter missing is you! From the Painter kids anyway!

I know that you and Grandaddy were there to greet her as she came through the heavenly gates and I am sure she was happy to see u both. We sure do miss u all so very much.

Needed u today as I am sure u noticed...came to visit and brought u flowers...had lunch and
needed some peace. I found some peace with you today.

Mommy, You and Auntie Dianne

Seven years you lived here with mommy and daddy, seven years you have had your beautiful angel wings, this year we would have celebrated 14 years. I know u would have been a fun teenager and we would have had a lot of fun together. Although I know you had to go I still can't help but miss you with every shred of my being. I have so many thoughts about u wondering how things would be different, miss those big moments in your life and always wishing for the little moments...like our lunches together, our pedicures, our arts and crafts times!!! I miss it all and am so jealous of those that have the opportunity to spend that kind of time with their kids and don't. Sometimes I wonder if they could get a glimpse into what it is like to watch their child fight for their life then maybe they would appreciate what they have with their child and make the most of every day.

I am thankful for the memories and pictures I have of you especially on hard days there is always a little smile from you that seems to turn some of those grey clouds into a rainbow.

I miss you my angel every day but even more so on your anniversary and days when we would have had fun together!  This week has been a difficult one knowing that we were approaching such a big anniversary. Hard to believe that just 7 years and 24 hours ago we were baking chocolate chip cookies in the new kitchen in our new oven.

I love you more than all the stars in the heavens seen and unseen times infinity! I miss you more than can be imagined!

Could you come back and stay a while
I want to hear your voice
And see you smile
I want to hold you tight
And never let go
And tell you how much
I love you so
~by John F. Conner

I love you Alyssa Bailey Miller!!!

Love always,

Mommy